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You're a-okay. Damn a-okay.
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[01 Apr 2005|11:32am] |
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[26 Mar 2005|11:17pm] |
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Spent another afternoon with my mom. She's a lovely lady. I've been very spoiled these past days. I got new things again. My shoes gave me horendous blisters that hurt extremely bad, never wear these shoes without socks, ouch. While we were at Target, we saw my Aunt, the one who has cancer, and she looked so perfect it made me very happy. Besides the fact that she was in a wheel chair, she looked perfectly normal and healthy. It made me very happy to see her. I turned the corner and a gigantic smile spread across my face. Never take the people you love for granted. _______ I miss that one kid who I used to talk to for obscene amounts of hours, trying to make eachother laugh. I miss the inside jokes and 4 am giggling. I miss the weird things you'd say through the mic out the speakers and into my ears. I miss the random letters you would press down and send to me. I miss that. I miss you....
( happy easter with a drawing i did on my computer. )
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[25 Mar 2005|07:51pm] |
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Today I spent the day with my Mom. We had fun being girls, Bought new things to make us feel good. Shiney things that go in our ears and around our necks. I now have lime green white and yellow shoes, wich will be the envy of all feet. Tomorrow I plan on doing the same looking for a new bag to throw my things in.
I want to see something shocking
til then
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| Spring Break |
[24 Mar 2005|07:19pm] |
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Spring Break is finally here and brought some warm weather along. Most of the children are heading to Florida for their little vacation. That's where my brother currently is. I personally don't like Florida, nor do I have any intentions of spending my leisure time there. For me, there are too many senior'd citizens. I don't have any plans for my time except sleeping. I have had a lack of it and Im looking forward to catching up. Im going to dye my hair and visit my friends. I only wish I lived close.
Im afraid Im becomming sick, so Im going to get my vitamins and liquids before I am burning with a fever.
with love
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| one mans tragic is anothers blessing. |
[21 Mar 2005|08:53pm] |
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I really hate not knowing if I stressed mysef out for over a week, for nothing. Soccer coaches failed to tell who's on the junior varsity team. My nerves are on end, and Im anxious just to know. I hate it when I do bad, because I feel like I've failed myself. I've pulled 2 muscles in my legs. I think one is my groin. Isnt that lovely?
Im getting distant from my parents again because I have a lot on my sholders right now, that Im very stressed out about. My parents act like they hate me unless I am doing everything perfect, and being the greatest daughter, always happy. Im sorry that I came into a jagged road with hundreds of pot holes. Trying to be happy is harder when you dont really mean it
I hate being jealous and selfish. Those are two emotions I wish we could all live without, but Im sad to admit that I face those two alot, and Im not fond of it. I wish it was easier to change
signed sincerely me
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| blah blah blah and so on. |
[20 Mar 2005|09:13pm] |
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what
is it about,
the universe,
the universe about us stretching out?
we, within our brains,
within it,
think
we must unspin
the laws that spin it.
We think why
because we think,
because
because we think,
we think,
the universe is about us.
but does it think,
the universe?
then what about?
about us?
If not,
must there be cause
in the universe?
must it have laws?
and what
if the universe
is not about us?
then what?
what is it about?
and what about us?
( my lovely room )
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[20 Mar 2005|12:45pm] |
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Promises mean nothing. Theyre made with no intentions of keeping them. The next time you utter, " I promise " out of your lying lips, double check the meaning.
Long day waiting until six o clock to spend time with the family. Not thrilled about it, I always find someway to go crazy inside my mind when I've spent too much time with the people who Im around constantly. We sat through a three hour movie with our necks cranked back because we were seated in the second row from the front. I already wasnt feeling well, and the leave it to beaver family makes me uneasy. We went out to eat I sat and drew in my notebook with people too close for comfort breathing down my neck. Came home, and fell asleep listening to oh my god.
Today I woke up early, but I soon went back to bed because I realised what else is there to do. My mom put off my plans for another weekend, even though theyve already been put off before. I plan on saving up money and going without her knowledge. The brady bunch left for the mall, so Im home alone, and loving every minute of the silence.
signed sincerely me
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| should i trust the postage due to deliver my heart to you? |
[18 Mar 2005|08:59pm] |
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Music Fest is over---------rated. Joel is an amazing drummer though, mad props. Im sad that I didn't get to see Eric play, though I've already had a private concert. We matched =)) Spit fights and the drive home with beautiful girls, Im proud to call my friends is something I'll cherrish.
Im starting to run out of crushes to place on temporary boys. My heart's been over worked and it needs a rest.
signed sincerely me
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| hector sanchez cinquistador basal, tiffany's offspring |
[17 Mar 2005|09:38pm] |
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i have soccer from 1-3 then moosic fest from 3-8. Thats where i'll be :) 2656363 if you want to meet up with me.
i live soccer. i like doing practices after school. exercise gives you endorphins . endorphins make you happy :) im very happy :)
i have the worst timing with guys.ever
love you, amandaerlenbeck
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| freakin 12 gage what do you think?!?!?! |
[16 Mar 2005|08:05pm] |
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dy-no-mite
I've been busy, and tired so I havent updated. Its hard not being on then trying to catch up with a billiono posts, expecially when im not allowed to post a comment since your page has been blocked due to parental control :)mm just love it.
Ive started soccer. I didnt condition so Im reeeeeeeally pushin it and it hurts. but i love the game and it's worth it in the end.
tia hilitas was.. weird. I got sick from the food. infested chunks of meat in the tacos. I dont care for meat.I dont like gnawing on something that could do the same to me. eric sat next to me & we laughed alot. I got freaked out by the teacher's strange daughter who runs into walls.
chasta gave me hellogoodbye and oh my god cds. i love her. i love them.
eric told me he had to take a massive dump today :/ hey everybody poops.
I love first hour and drawing pictures for joel & when he draws them for me. theyre always so deliciously weird. he said my gum tastes like making out ?
Ive been down on myself alot lately. I never feel like im good enough. I guess I just keep trying. I hate to keep failing.
love always
earl
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[13 Mar 2005|12:33pm] |
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TIA HELITA'S CON RICO SUAVE♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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[12 Mar 2005|08:58pm] |
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Today I just slept and cleaned. My room desperately needed it. I went to blockbuster and got SAW. Im excited to watch it. Im a little scared too. My parents rented Shall We Dance. I started watching it with them, then erica came over and her and kyle were ... god theyre just gay. they play with eachother like theyre little 3 year olds its queer. besides that the movie was really lame and I couldnt stand sitting there anymore. and if I say something no one notices anyways. so it's like why. Tomorrow I'm somewhat excited for the whole spanish thing. I dont really want to see mrsninotti or have to order something in spanish. but I get to laugh at stupid stuff with eric so that should be fun. this entry's really dumb so im done with it and im gonna go watch SAW.
damnaokay - im
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[12 Mar 2005|12:18am] |
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today waas terrrrrrific. except for the fact that my ear hurts really bad like. (im watching south park where kyle's dad is turned into a dolphin.hahawow). So tonight was lovely. Illllloveeric. my favorite boy in the world. each time I hang out with him I love him even more. Lovely chasta <3 took me to the local (thank you!!!) and we saw oh my god. and oh my god. they were AMAZINGthey bought tshirts. I wish I could have. I should go to the mall and find one. LALALALA. omg I love that boy. and I love my tiffany. She was sleepy. I smacked her in the head a billion times. I felt bad. haaa ben plum had a mini seizure, it was great. I pulled the hairs off his sweatshirt for him. because Im a good for that...........well im totally happy right now. & sunday is the awesome cool um.....spanish thing with the greatest boy in the world.
llllllllllllllove you!
akeq7
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[09 Mar 2005|05:33pm] |
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Ok
soooooooo I had to wait after school for about an hour while Kyle had a meeting for Mr. Swartz Creek, that was basically lame and um lame. I wish he would have told me. or pulled me aside in school, but no I think it's too much to be seen speaking to me. I like staying after like 10 minutes while everyone's still there so you can actually talk to the people you dont get to durring the day. I actually measured my key in class. It was 3 inches. who makes a key 3 inches long? I told eric and this one kid was staring at me... I tried not to look at him while I laughed at my 3 inch key. =/ he makes me nervous and my stomach has a seizure every time I see him.
Isnt it weird that people know who you are and you don't know them. This one kid knew my name today when he was talking to me. Its not that weird I guess, but I feel bad I dont know his name and he knows mine. He's weird though.
I want to fill my weekend with fun things. Please do something with me. I love you.
PS. why do people get freaked out when I tell them I love them? If youre really important to me, I love you, and I'll tell you. I think it's important to tell people that. Everyone likes being loved, and you never know, you might not ever get to tell them.
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[06 Mar 2005|04:09am] |
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I've been messin with my journal nonstop. i cant help it, im obsessive, i wish i was smart enough to make it my own style. I was supposed to be doing so much this weekend. but like every weekend all my plans go to shit. I give up. I have no life. I am lame. I did go to meijers. There was this boy. He showed off in front of me. If he was trying to impress me it worked. =) It was awesome. Everyone's renting saw, i really want to see it. maybe i'll go to blockbuster tomorrow.
My Dad and I fixed my car intenna today. Now I get more channels. I still need to install my new radio, and get new speakers. Dumb car.
Im really tired.
later
lame mand
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| You'd rather watch me drown, then see your hands get wet. |
[04 Mar 2005|10:15pm] |
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So yeah basically life sucks. summed up. My brother got in a car accident this morning and my parents acted like it was my fault, like my foot was on the pedal. Yeah i was late for the first time in a month, but this kid should have barrelled out of the driveway at 30 mph. maybe he should have looked before he kept going straight into the street.
My dad has ruptured disks in his spine.. something like that and eventually needs to replace them.
Yesturday I woke up to gunshots at three in the morning
My aunt has cancer
Both my grandmothers had cancer
My mom had a breast lump when I was little. had to have surgury to remove it.
My car is broken . Now kyle's car is broken.
and, not that big of a deal, but my parents put a parental control on my aol and then they changed the password so i cant change it. So now i have to stick up with aol acting like im a 12 year old, and blocking sites i go to regularly, such as this one. yet kyle, the one who's probably looking at porn and crap, his account is left alone.
My brother, i give up trying to be his sister, i dont want to be related to him anymore. He's a jerk. He is jealous of me and my dad because were really REALLy close. I have the relationship with my dad that a son should have. and maybe they'd be closer if kyle wasnt such a bitch , and im sorry that i actually love working on cars and i love motorcycles and i like messing around and joking around. maybe if he wasnt such a jerk all the time he'd have relationships with people other than his girlfriend. whipped.
Im really mad. and i have like a total of three minutes to be online then it kicks me off anyways. who came up with parental controls seriously.
I HATE LIFE i seriously do right now.
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[03 Mar 2005|05:26pm] |
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I saw eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. I really liked it.
I wish I had a new cd player. I hate mine. It always stops and restarts on me. Its a piece of crap.
I really want a job, but no one's hiring. In florida there was a help wanted sign in every window.
I thought I dreamt something last night but it was real. It really freaked me out because its like I cant tell what's real from a dream. What it was about was really really disturbing and scary... it freaks me out thinking about what actually happened and I cant believe that it really happened.
Im really tired right now so im done writing.
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[02 Mar 2005|06:06am] |
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ANOTHER snowday!
the sc is closed.
blarh blarh snurflenuggle.
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| ♪♬If you tolorate this. your children will be next. |
[01 Mar 2005|04:27pm] |
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Snow days are great. No work. Boring though.
Mom went to doc's today. She asked her about me. The doc said that I should be on birth control pills. She says that I have a 60% less chance of getting ovarian cancer by being on birth control. I have it on both sides of my family. both grandparents had it, now my aunt has it. I cant say Im not worried... why was a thing like cancer ever created???
( is there anything more beautiful? )
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| ♪♬ Im too busy trying to smile today. |
[28 Feb 2005|09:39pm] |
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♪♬ Hellow
I think im convincing my mom to let me dye my hair :)) That makes me happy. Nothing interesting happens in my life, so I have no fun stories to tell you. I love Tiffany, because she falls alot and it makes me laugh. I love the fact that she was trying to say something but instead she snorted. I love my first hour and the crazy boys that sit next to me. I love second hour and eriq making me laugh and stacie. I loved making fun of kristen's peach durring lunch, it looked like a massive ass. I love sixth hour with all those girls,[and gonyea west (gangster)], that class is fun. So my day was funny. I did my homework. And that's all I have.
After I finished my homework I started drawing horrible drawings [i swear i draw better than this :))]
( these make me laugh )
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